Saturday, January 15, 2005
I was sooooo angry yesterday. I don't think I've ever been this angry in my life before, it was scary. Maybe it's PMS or mood swings... but I don't like excusing myself for my behavior. Especially when it was about something really stupid and unnecessary. I wanted to scream and punch something and just be nuts. I guess watching the TV series "Six Feet Under" influenced me in a negative way. Each show is packed with enough swear words to last you a lifetime.It's a really good show, I must say. The characters are amazing and the acting is soooo well-done, as well as the twist of the story. But nothing beats "Nip/Tuck" show. I finished the whole first season (13 episodes) of "6 feet under" in less than 2 weeks. I can't wait for the second season. I'm gonna watch them next week probably. I have an essay due on Thursday, so... gotta do some research for that first.
So, back to my being angry. So yeah, being the self-conscious person that I am, I paused for a moment and took a deep breath. I tried to calm down. I realized that I failed in NOT letting my emotions (anger, frustration, lack of sleep) control me. So I tried to laugh about it (another failure, unfortunately). I realized that me being angry and aggressive didn't change a thing; it only made me feel angrier and shittier. So I asked God's help in granting me patience and strength.
Then I took a nap, of course, after realizing that I only had like 3 hours of sleep the night before. I also tried to see the situation differently; that everything is part of His divine plan. I've learned not to regret things that already happened and can't be fixed, because those things must happen for me to be stronger and wiser. So... I guess now my anger and frustration are back to normal (what's normal anyway?), especially after I expressed them in writing... I love writing! Phew...
si Monyet @ 1/15/2005 01:30:00 PM
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